The Way

Monday, March 1, 2010

Its so late at night already and im not asleep. And its not just because ive been doing math like the good boy i am. or want to be. its just, hard to sleep when youve got so many things going through your mind. but the thing is, i have no idea whats running through my mind. its like looking at the race track and all you see are cars zooming past. you dont even know what the car model is, or the driver for the matter.

Ive been doing alot of observing lately. oh, in case i didnt already mention, one of my hobbies include observing people. how they behave. why they behave the way they do. how this affects what they will do. get new ideas on the way other people might react to what you do. find similarities between other people. find differences between other people. find out what makes these differences. hypothesize how people could be different had they been brought up differently. dammit i love my hobby. i really recommend it, though one of the bad things about doing this is that people often mistake what you are doing as daydreaming. and when embarking on this, i strictly recommend that you keep the observations centered around other people. dont try the same thing on yourself. and ill tell you why.

if you had a pop quiz, say on math. it would really be a true measure of how consistent you are since you would not have been able to specifically prepare for the quiz. however, if you somehow knew that a pop quiz was coming, it will not be a true gauge. pretty much the same concept. your mind will know that you are trying to read your actions so it will make you do what it wants you to do for the sake of observation. this leads to inaccurate, often contradictory thoughts about yourself and all it does is to confuse you. which is NAT good.

ive been observing alot, thinking alot, drawing all sorts of conclusions. and i realised how little i know. what i work on is purely hypothetical. it will always remain as a hypothesis so long as nothign confirms it, which is hard. because if you seek for it to be confirmed, then it will be, which makes your observations confusing. if you leave it be, you may never get the answer andyoull be left hanging. which is pretty much where i am. damn its just hard to read people.

but its interesting nonetheless. sometime in the future, i think i want to be involved in a profession, albeit for a very short time, which involves dealing with affairs of the mind, for manipulation is something i find very fascinating as it gives you unparalleled control over one's actions. im a sadistic control freak. nah. not yet at least. but you just wait. someday i will rule thet world.

wouldnt that just be interesting?

Husaini @ 8:17 AM

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Ahmad Husaini
02/05/1992
Raffles Rugby 05-08, Pwnage09, 10S06F
I like sports, though nothing in particular

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