The Way

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold

Feel I'm getting old

Before my time

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man

i feel like such a bear now. a bear on a low lying (vv strong) branch from a tree with my heavy arms hanging by the side and my eyes are barely open. it feels like every part of my body is a heavy bear part, and then when someone (presumeably my brother) walks past, id take a heavy and lazy swipe at him and he would fall GEDEBAK. and it would feel good. heh. okay fine, bears dont do that, but id do it if i were a bear anyway.

i just feel lazy these days. not lazy like "i dont want to do work id rather lepak" but lazy like "i want to do work but i dont know if i should." what a stupid question OF COURSE I SHOULD. but do we really do what we all SHOULD do? probably not. its just been a rather emotionless few days. i feel like i dont FEEL anything. like this happens. okay. next?

sometimes i wish i could be just like any other normal kid, who feels normally, who does things normally. but im not. clearly. (eh my MnM, the valentines gift one, one of the little nuts came out in the shape of a heart! it was so cute hahaha but i ate it nonetheless). sometimes i think i have a gift for food heh. like i know what would taste nice together and what would not. which prompted me to try my own recipe for breakfast. i put spread butter on two slices of bread, put cheese on one of them and put semi crushed keropok (not the fish one, the white-ish one) in the other and atethem together. and it turned out real good somehow XD too bad i ran out of keropok.

and today was wasted. i planned to study after running with halim, but we ended up playing a fierce game of nerf-gun-war. SYIOK seh the little gun can shoot with so much power. i played and played till almost asar :\ which left me with no time to study. dammit, no more nerfs, husaini.

"true friends can grow seperately without growing apart"

i have no idea who saidthat, and i saw it somewhere (maybe someones pm or even blog but i cant remember heh) and it stuck with me like bubbletea pearl on school uniform. its so meaningful and thinking about that always makes my day. well, part of it at least. it gives me the comfort that even though some of my closest friends may make new friends or not be in contact with me for so long, i know id still have them at the end of the day. i hope.

and last but not least, i just realised how unrelated and no-link-ish the contents of most of my posts may be, but ohwell. at least theres a post. its just i dont quite know how to express myself so i jsut type as it comes to my head. which shows how messy my train of thought is. like roti kirai.

Husaini @ 4:00 AM

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Ahmad Husaini
02/05/1992
Raffles Rugby 05-08, Pwnage09, 10S06F
I like sports, though nothing in particular

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