The Way

Friday, April 17, 2009

heh this will be in a more serious note. i just realised that i have been wasting my years in RI. as in seriously wasted. the amount of time i spent lepaking and hanging out and tryign to have a social life, if i had used about half of that time for studying i would have been at least a 3.6 student. haha macam perasan ah tapi this is just to show that i really did alot of slacking. i only did work if i wanted to, following my whim and that meant playing some stupid game or another. i only handed in work (which totalled about 50 percent of the total work given by the teachers) late when i was constantly bugged to for at least 2 weeks. i only remember doing my english portfolio in time, in sec 4, and that was becasue i gto tegured through my parents by the english teacher.

i spent countless hours in the malay room, causing trouble and annoying the security guard to a great extent, under the pretext of studying, padahal i would usually be playing bridge and taiti. I spent a shitload of time in teh room at the top floor of the masjid, under the impression that if i went there i would be able to focus more. instead, i found many things to do in that ill-fated room which turned out to be just enough to last me through the sudy period for EOY, which i managed to scrape a pass for most of my subjects without studying much. this really leads me to think, WHAT IF i had been just a liiiittlllllleeeee more diligent in my work? see lah so young already got WHAT IFS. shit i hate that phrase but yea ill have to live with it.

enough with this serious shizz. it scares me to know how deeply i can think at times.

so now i have decided on a few things, eh actually just one. I HAVE TO STUDY. more. and husaini, studying doesnt mean skimming through ur notes once. yes mak i know. then why u still do? *shrugs shoulders.*

actually its that simple. set aside time to study. do nothign but study. even if it means spening less time in school. AWWWWW. even if it means chatting less online. DOUBLE AWWWWW. Even if it means not hanging out with people i love as much anymore. FUCK IT LAH AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW :DDDDD

pantat whats wrong with mehhhh????

*nothing boy.*

huh whos that?

*your conscience.*

are you sure?

*yes lah idiot.*

so why am i talking to you?

*you asked the question to nobody in particular, so i answered to make u look less stupid.*

thanks man what would i ever do without you <3333

THERE. thats how my mind works most of the time. notice the blankness and complete lack of content. its just me going in a socratic seminar by myself, only instead of spiralling upwards to find new solutions, mine goes in circles x)

dammit this has got to stop.

and you're not helping.

*i know but isnt that why im here :D*

DAH LAH ENOUGH LAH heh as i said WHATS WRONG WITH MEHHHHHHHHHHHHH?

Husaini @ 7:37 AM

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Ahmad Husaini
02/05/1992
Raffles Rugby 05-08, Pwnage09, 10S06F
I like sports, though nothing in particular

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