The Way

Saturday, May 22, 2010

I think im moving. To wordpress. If i like it there then ill keep posting there instead. But ill keep this here for memories. And i might want to post here for a change too. Its been great pinutboy of blogger. Time to welcome pinutboy of wordpress (:

Husaini @ 11:55 AM

Friday, May 21, 2010

The drama went by very well. Really, it did. I mentally envisioned the drama to turn out like how it did on thursday during pracs, and i was immensely worried. The mistimings of the lightings, the miscued sounds, the clumsy and noisy props and the soft, soft actors. Not to mention the lacklustre dancing which i thought for sure would spoil the whole thing which cwas already not too good to being with. And i was surprised. Pleasently surprised. Everything went smoothly, save for a few hiccups which i think were superbly covered. Special mention goes out to props who, though i thought werent excellent, drew praises from certain segments of the audience.

Im so proud of you guys. And the cast. And the AV people. And the mouse clicker. And even the dancers.

Takdir really is something wierd isnt it. You cant anticipate it. You cant interpret it however you like cos its not meant to be interpret that way. It just happens. And we have to accept it. Just like that. Though it sometimes sucks.

Husaini @ 9:33 PM

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Ah i should be asleep but what the heck im up so i might as well post. Anyway, ive just done some reflecting ,well not just, a few days ago actually, and i realised that i might be burning out WAAAY ahead of schedule. nnononono thats bad. But the signs are there. Ive been feeling totally unmotivated for work for the past two weeks. In fact, ive done zero work, apart from last minute cramming for both SPAs (and by that i mean reading the notes ten minutes before the test o.o) and attempting to read up for physics lecture. But its like, i cant bring myself to read the notes.

I get physically tired very fast when i attempt to study, and when i do get around to do it, i would totally not be able to read on. like either my mind will keep rereading the same sentence over and over again, or somehow i cant get my mind to mentally read the next few words.

In an attempt to remedy this, i sometimes just turn on the computer to play, but even that gets boring very quick and i end up jsut staring into the computer screen most of the time. its just so hard to study and i dont know why, or at least i THINK i might know why. I have not been studying for four years prior to jc and the sudden studying at a fast rate might have taken a toll on me. and i hate that. damn, i feel like crying sometimes when i read my notes, these two weeks. and for no reason. Its kindof amazing that it took me two weeks to notice this. I would have thought that i wuold sense this faster. see? even my mind isnt working properly.

MAYBE i did not burn out (whew) but something is just troubling me and i dont know what it is.
ah crap that sounds like very indulgent, selfish ranting.

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Time Clicks as I await

The hour ends before my take

Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escapes

The day grows old as night passes

Wolves crying, coyotes howling; anticipating

Watching, staring, seeing -- nothing

Silence begins the day

as morning comes without notice

Tears begin to fall, slowly

The day moves on without hope

Wishing to be what is not to be

The sun moves to its peak

without a whisper or retreat

Time moving, but still empty

Stomach aching, curling

Still waiting

-Gary R. Hess

Husaini @ 9:58 AM

Monday, May 10, 2010

~ It is one of the severest tests of friendship to tell your friend her faults. So to love a woman that you cannot bear to see a stain upon her, and to speak painful truth through loving words, that is friendship. ~

The week so far has been better than i expected. Of course, i wasnt expecting much this week anyway. Monday was stuff myself day and stuff myself i did. i think i spent close to ten bucks on cheap and good food in the canteen. mehhh. I dont want to gain even more weight o.o BUT good food is important so what the heck.

Todays physics SPA went much better than i expected. no silly circuits to set up, i brought my calculator, i prayed v hard before the test, i did it, i felt good. thats all.

And if what was quoted above is true, i must be quite a terrible friend. i dont know how else to say things other than how they really are and, well, i sure as hell cant speak painful truth through loving words. ohwell. what to do XD

if i were a boy.

Husaini @ 6:54 AM

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

"FICKLE PICKLE"

Ah, it is just something amusing zaid and halim and I heard on our way back to school from j8. At Bishan mrt, someone did the loud kissing sound so instinctively, the three of us turned back. along with another group of ITE students. and it turns out it was for them but we watched the kissing-sounder nonetheless. She laughed and said "HAHAHA aku fickle siaa" and without batting an eylid, her friend to whom she was kissing to replied "A'ah, macam pickle." ROFLMAO heh i dont know why but it just seemed damn funny. shows us just how capable malays are of making sensible conversation XD

Anyway today is rashidis birthday woohoo! the plan was just awesome, really. zaid and halim was to present rashidi with a pandan cake from uncle heng and say "Nah your birthday cake." then we would come out with the real cake and the gift. and totally surprise him. So we did it during tarian prac. AND IT COULDNT HAVE WORKED BETTER. initially, we had some problems, like how to make the transition between getting the pandan cake and getting the actual cake. But there were so many ppl there we decided to just get them to sing a song to distract him. and embarrass him of course. Then another problem came. none of us (halim syat zaid and i) was thick skinned enough to start singing, though halim made a valiant attempt to gather the people. luckily, just luckily, faizal came along and being his tak malu and at times attention seeking self, agreed to start singing a birthday song. AND SING HE DID. he practically shouted the song and i couldnt help but laugh while helping syat prepare the real cake. retard XD

And we came out and gave him the cake and all the while rashidi was making this happy-but-i-cant-do-anything-but-smile look. and his reaction when he got our gift was priceless. he took the gift, unwrapped it (it was covered in moo's jacket since we were too cheap to buy wrapping XD) and held the thing, a female version of the alien stitch, being pink and had an extra pair of antenna compared to the male one we gave him two years ago, in one hand, and started laughing his ass off, pointing the coveted middle finger to zaid and I. i felt so damn accomplished TEEHEE. and of course he liked it, but for the fact that we might have been mocking him a little, and he knew it. but thats just part of the fun. and once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RASHIDI! though i know you dont visit this blog heh heh (: (: (: (: (:

ahh well time to get back to mugging. CHEM SPA, PHYSICS LECTURE TEST and IMPORTANT ECONS TUTORIAL to prepare for tmr. die die die. i cant fail this physics lecture test. i got a reputation to uphold, surprisingly enough. heh heh.

thats all for now (:

Husaini @ 7:11 AM

Thursday, April 29, 2010

This week went by quite well, even though its only thursday now (:
I went for my first math ASP for two weeks and i must say i find it extremely useful. The fact that the class size is about 5 - 10 people and the fact that they dont anyhow assign lousy teachers to this thing makes it all the more enriching. I find myself doing extraordinary things during math ASP, partly because they give really good summarised notes and partly because being surrounded by people with around the same level of math competence really is a confidence booster. i shall not pon ASP anymore (:

smile people (:

tuesday was ballsssss. but since when has tuesday not been balls? i lent my gc to iqbal because he had a math lecture test. but i forgot that i had physics practical mock SPA that afternoon. During the SPA, i fixed teh circuit right the first time, but the reading was wayy off. like how your supposed to get zero reading and instead, the galvanometer hits the limit and gives no reading.my teacher came and we both tried all sorts of things to fix this. we changed the batt, changed the wire, changed the resistors. everything. but still cannot. in the end she figured that there must be a losoe wire somewhere and left me. i fiddled with the damn thing until i got it right, only to sneeze and drop the delicate piece of wiring. i had to redo it. and i did. and that left me with 30 minutes to get readings, plot the graph, manipulate the formula, find the values, write my observations and calculate uncertainty. adding to the fact that i had no calculator, the calculations i had to made were, well, complex. i had to find the cross sectional area of the wire. using mental sums. i had to divide wierd numbers like 20/7, then use that value to use to divide another wierd value like 0.884 by it.i was quite proud that i did manage to finish the gross table. but i had little else to do.

so for my observation, i wrote "There were no anomalous readings as i did not plot a graph," instead of the usual "There were no anomalous readings as all the points lie close to the line of best fit." i drew a cow at the space provided for calculation of uncertainty.i wonder what the teacher will do to me. but that was fun (: i just hope my REAL SPA doesnt end up like that.

wednesday was quite fulfilling. literally. there was a truckload of doo at teh amphi. well not a truckload but it sure was a helllotoffood. me being my retard self filled a whole container with mashed potato and gravy. and brought it home for snack later. IT WAS DAMN NICE. i didnt have to eat dinner and breakfast and lunch the next day.

and today i watched a very funny drama practice session XD ashraf was at his kesian-and-at-the-same-time-kental self (:

~~~~~when life gives you lemons, you squeeze them to make lemon juice. when life gives you balls, squeeze em till you cry. (for the unsharp mind, please do not actually do it. it hurts. trust me~~~~~

ohwell. i could do with more weeks like these :]

Husaini @ 5:42 AM

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I think my blogposts are going to shrink from now on. Partly because i am no longer capable of coherent thought (so many unnecessary things running in out of my mind). Partly because i am a lazy person to begin with. And partly because i would feel less guilty about not studying if i werent on the computer blogging.

Anyway this past week has been...quite a week.Nothing spectacular but something did whoosh past. Its like not actually seeing a breathtaking dragon, but you did feel it fly past, leaving you awestruck/panicked for a moment. And again i learn that i really should start learning some lessons from an earlier post.

Dont put all your eggs in one freaking basket

aaand

Learn from past incidents to not experience...it. Again.

Its about time really. because this just aint healthy.

on a lighter note, this week has been not productive. at all. i dont know why, i just dont feel like studying. not the kind where you are lazy (though i am) and then you feel like it would be too troublesome to study. its more like i cant bring myself to do so. i somehow cant. not just mentally, physically as well.

DAMMIT. ineedhelpbutimtoofckeduptoask.

Husaini @ 7:27 AM

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Ahmad Husaini
02/05/1992
Raffles Rugby 05-08, Pwnage09, 10S06F
I like sports, though nothing in particular

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